Drank Tazo Iced Black Tea with seaweed on the side.
Smoked a little bowl.
Meditated.
Did some yoga/tai chi.
Got ready for work.

Tonight should be good.

Supposedly people at my work talk about how attractive I am, and how badass my personality is.

Perks of having your dad work at the same job you do.

Mima’s Memory

You lived a long life, but now it’s time you take flight.
Into the Heavens, follow that light.
That light, you see, is what you meant to me.
Bright, cheerful, smiling inside; you were always by my side.
You kept us strong, together, some-what sane.
You were our blessed gain.
Quiet now, awake not conscious.. this will be the thing that haunts us.
A few days now, silent, no voice.. This was her god’s choice.
The time is almost up, now your casket’s closed shut..
Your soul is gone, and yes, we will cry.
You’ve lived a good life, now it’s time you die.

Everyone I love in my life leaves me.

-My biological dad: never in my life until a couple years ago.

-Keith: in and out of my life, (but luckily now he’s staying).

-Breanne: locked up.

-Mika: locked up.

-Luis: killed.

-Travis/Bergin/Clayton: locked up.

- My great grandma: almost dead.

Who the fuck is next. 

I will forever love him. As a friend, as a lover, as a spirit, and as a thought. He will always have the biggest piece of my heart.

April 22nd - Happy Earth Day!

~ Remember to be mindful of your surroundings. If it wasn’t for the plants that Mother Nature has provided you, none of us would be where we are today. Clean up after yourselves and go spend time out doors; just embrace life around you. You only have one body and planet you get to experience at a time. Don’t take advantage of what you have been given. Be grateful that you have air to breath, due to the nature surrounding you. I hope you all have a wonderful day. Namaste. ॐ

Love is a weird thing. When you finally fall in love (if you believe in it) and both of the feelings are mutual, you’ll just know. You can also tell if someone else is in love with you, when you aren’t with them. The person whom I am in love with is still in my life and our relationship is the strongest it’s been. Except I’m with someone who I care about too much and is in love with me, whereas I am not with him. And the other guy has a girl of his own now. I don’t know if it was just me or not, but it was awkward as shit seeing them tonight, I don’t know if they felt that way too, or if it was just me… I don’t know. I’m stuck. I’m not used to a long relationship either. I can’t just break up with him cause he’ll probably kill himself. But I’m not happy. I’d rather be single than not happy in a relationship. I feel suffocated. And as “perfect” my relationship may seem, I am not happy with it.